I've been hearing this song for a long time now and since the first time I heard it, it really make me feel good....

check it guys!

it's really a beautiful song...

i dedicate it to my FRIENDS...hahahah

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Artist: Kristin Dunst
Song: Dream of Me
Album: "Get Over It" Movie Soundtrack


Let me sleep
For when I sleep I dream that you are here
You're mine
And all my fear is left behind
I float
On air
The nightengale sings gentle lullabies
So let me close my eyes...
And sleep, perchance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch
To kiss
But only dreams can bring me this
So let the moon shine
Softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He'll dream of me.

I hide beneath the clouds
And whisper to the evening stars
They tell me love is just a dream away...dream away...
A dream away.

So let the moon shine
Softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams...
He'll dream of me.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh dream of me.

fave movie: Legally Blonde....
heheheh

wwwwwwwwwala lng...

i'm on vaca...
translation: --'im at home...not sure if i'm feeling rested or relaxed or just plain lazy...

i don't go out a lot...

haha...
yeah ryt!


ang saya!!!

ndi n ako sobrang attached sa mga fwends sa naga....
wala lng...
not absolutely detached....

ano lng....medyo lessened....
kc db, before sobrang attached tlga...

i mean...every thought and basically everything is all about THEM..
veve..shiggy....ada....jelyn...

bsta...yan...

alam nyo kung pano nangyari??
it really was simply wierd...;p

siguro nagsimula lng yung "detachment" nung nag-"jogging" kmi nina arrianne (jogging??yeah ryt!hahah)
bsta...kc ksma ko cna aryan(childhood friend)....john(brother-type).....nadia (my overweight buddy) tsaka c nanetta (long-lost friend...whaahaha)

bsta...everything just seemed like before...
parang wala lng nangyari...

i mean...
hello!!

sbgy....d main reason nmn kc of my being too attached to the usi ppl...is d gap between me and the paulinian guys....

cguro....that moment that i was with them...
i realized na ndi nmn tlga lht ng paulinians mga quot" "enemies"
you know what i mean...

bsta,...it's like....d old band is back together making songs again...filing out the pages in their songbooks about life...
wahhahhahaha

ano p b?

october 29 ngaun.....
txted veve and jelyn when i woke up this morning....at 9...hehehe

wala lng...
kc......october 29....a year had passed....
hahah..
it was on this very day na una kming lumabas na magkakasama...
i mean...yung nakasama ko tlga cla...and everything started on this day last year...haha

yung mga "pahula" na troubling....yung tamabay sa clinic nina jelyn....
yung mickey mouse shirt ni veve...everything!!
nakakamiss....naalala ko pa pati yun!

hahahah

----
yesterday kc....
i arrived at 5am from manila....kc nag-enroll ako last 27th...

tpos un...

we were supposed to go swimming that night...

pinayagan na c jelyn...c arrianne, syempre ok...lalo n nmn cna john and nadia....
well...d2 sana sa villa pena...
nakakagulat nga kc pinayagan c jelyn....
tsk5...
sinsbi ko n.....

it was really too good to be true....
sobrang pinilit ko tlga mom niya.....pumayag na sana...but then, it was her dad na ndi n pumayag....pft.....
thats life!!!
and thats how jelyn lives......tsk5......
medyo mskit sa loob nung una...kc after all the planning tsaka pagpilit ko pa sa mga tao, d rin pla xa papayagan....frustrating db?

nung wala n tlga pag-asa.....pinanghinaan ako...

e....nagyari pa....pagdating na pagdating ko d2 sa bahay, umulan...

sobrang nagtatawagan na kmi kung tuloy...
napag-usapan na on another day na lang kc parang bumabagyo n tlga....
e dpt.....night swimming kc ayaw nming umitim (ang aarte).
tpos yan....cancelled.....
hahaha...sabi nmin 2day n lng...

kaso, c arrianne, d p umuuwi from naga...

sbi ko sana bukas,,, octber 30....c mama nmn....biglang cnbi knna na pupunta kmi sa legaspi for the Ibalon Festival(?)
so un....tinwgn ko ulit c nadia......sa oct 31 n lng.....

pft....wish ko lng matuloy......

pumunta pla ko kina ate joan peconcillo kahapon...wala lng...

hehehe.......
ingay2 ni ate joan...hahah!!

joke lng!!

miss ko n mn daa kaya mga cousins ko....(ottsss)

tpos un....hahah
wala nmn c kuya jayrone sa bahay nila kaya d kmi nagkita...
lokong yun.......tinext ko n...d p rin umuwi...hehehe

inaantok n ko....
aalis pa kming maaga bukas....
try nyo 6:30 ang trip....meaning i have to wake up at 5am!!!

yeah ryt!
e....ako pa?? bakasyon kaya....ba't ako gigising gnun kaaga....hahahah

ano nmn pti ggwin ko sa legaspi that early? e 1:30 pm p nmn dw magsisimula yung competition na papanoorin nmin....wahahahaha....

ang pangit ng schedule....o well!!!hehehehe

theme song pla nmin ni veve: ALIVE by jlo
theme song nmin ng kapatid ko(mico): FLY by hillary duff
-----nagrecord p kmi sa inbox ng phone sa bahay ng duet nmin ng FLY....bwahahahaha......
gnda2......kahit pinaglaruan......

hhhhaaayyy!!!

went stargazing knna...
d ko nkita yung orion's belt....
wala lng....

wala kc tlgang stars sa manila!!!grrrrrrrrrrr...!!

i wish....................i'll c those three memorable stars before i leave....

and besides.....shiggy and I are stargazers...wahahaha....
wala lng....

miss them guys...hahahaha

everything seems to have passed so fast.....
last Friday, i was planning to study...kaso, ndi nangyari...kc kchat ko c aaron and my brother Mico till 10pm...
pina2log p ako ni aaron ng maaga...so ndi tlga ako nakapagaral!hehe

Sat:
i attended the recollection...ok lng..gumaan ang pakiramdam ko...
problem is, it only lasted on that day!!
hehe...
cguro, d ko p tlga kaya...hirap kc e...

Sun:
nakachat ko c Shiggy from 4:30-9:00...
msya kc nabuhos ko yung sma ng loob ko khit papano..
damn! i miss having her at my side...yung tipong may napagsasabihan ako lagi...
well, i guess that's why we lose people...to realize we've been dependent on them so much...
hehe...emotional comfort...
pero ok n nmn......

i told her about "not breathing for about a day or so..." yung tipong wala n tlga akong mararamdaman in that span of time...
hhhaay!
i feel like i'm killing myself....
but being able to talk to her, everything ended well...
there's still more to my life than these tiring crap that fill my thoughts!!
haha
stupid me....
but remembering i have shiggy,...
i felt relieved....

d ako n2log dt nyt....
nakakapagtaka nga kc d nmn ako inaantok even after d day ended.
heheheh

Mon:
nag misscol ako s mga tao....
then i thot i'd call jelyn...just to say good morning
hehe..ang babaw!
tpos un...it was 7am...i thot may pasok cla...wala pa pla!!!
so there...i was d one who woke her up..hehe
well, i called her that night again...
as i expected, mabigat sa loob na makinig....
tpos iba n rin kc....
things do change
she did....
at least, thats how i see it...
i feel like i lost something important to me...

but hey! who knows...perhaps she really didn't change...
perhaps i just see that dominant part of her now...
hehe...

Tues:
Had my test in physics at 730!!!hehehe
knna lng yan
i was so relieved when i left the room...haha!
wala lng...
physics nmn kc yung first reason why i wasn't able to come home...
because of that long test!!!hehe...
kaya un,... i trued to study...
sana lng mataas yung grade.
as usual, ang gulo n nmn kc ng questions..hehe

well, almost two nights na ako walang 2log na maaus..........

i nid to SLEEP!!!
heheheh

since the last week of july (i think), I always looked forward to FRIDAYS....

prayer session!!!

when i first heard of it, i thought it was just one of those useless crap....all about faith thing...

but it's in this session that i've found some of the greatest people...

a "breather" as some calls it.

it's all about ending your week full of miserable days and restless nights ...with a few people to talk to....and feeling the warmth of what surrounds you....

just two sessions to go and no more prayer sessions every fridays.......just now, i know i'll miss it...with all the people in it...

i'm feeling....

stupid

sick

terrible

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i just don't feel so well.....

2:18 am in my clock

i need to go to sleep
i need to study
got loads more to do

something in my head throbs
my eyes are tired

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someone / some people
are in my thoughts again

both wonderful and terrible memories
keep coming to me.
i don't know if i want it to stop or continue...
wanna rest...but i can't

I think I'm just about to have the busiest week!!

actually, it's not that hard...

the only problem i have is one long test this coming thursday...
f it was any other subject, it'd be ok....
but it's for 'P-H-Y-S-I-C-S!!!
Ms. Morales --- guys, f ur taking up physics as ur natsci, make sure she's not ur teacher! whew! I've somehow lost my love for physics since I entered her class....whew! good thing things r just doing fine already....but still..........................eeeeeeee!!!!!

another thing to worry about ----
people from Bicol keep reminding me of the fiesta celebration!!
grrrrr...i'm trying to forget I'm gonna miss it...but people just keep reminding me!!!
huhuhuhu....
i wanna go back home....but i can't....
and one part of me really doesn't one me too...
i don't know why...........
still scared of the same stupid things i think...
haha!

got lots of things running in my head....grrrrr!!!
hope i can get over these....i just hope i can!!

hhhhaaayy!
it really feels good to keep in touch with your family...
my mom just called early this afternoon to check me out...
it was great talking to her -- the one who raised me into who i am now. i felt relieved somehow...comsidering all the thoughts troubling my mind...

it may not seem that much special....
guess I'm just missing them so much!!!!!!
kahit sabihing sana'y na ako to be apart from my family...iba pa rin kapag kasama sila....

It's not a new song...llang....just reminds me of precious memories with Veve, Karen........Ada, Shiegy.......most specially Veve syempre....
yan yung song na sinabi ko sa kanya before....
sabi dw hindi nya alam yung song...tpos nabalitaan ko n lng, kinanata nya on a certain event....
o well! basta....it meaning deeply means a lot to me....tpos, yung memories that comes with it.....

aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!kakakmiss

heheheh...

______________________________________

inx.

yung RAINBOW pa pla.....

USI 2004......."the rainbow will end in the palm of your hands....don't ever let it go..."
shocks!naiiyak na ako....hehehhe....


RAINBOW
South Border


Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world no, no
Breakin' out, breakin' in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no, no, no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, just/please smile
Coz im always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies color's
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, whoa

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

Coz oh, cant you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
Coz im always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear coz I know now
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm
Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear
So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and
Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful
Ohhhh

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

why does it bother mo sooooo much????

i really wanna go back home....even for a minute.(no!that would be nonsense)......a day perhaps....
i can't get my mind to think straight!!!!!!!

i keep looking back to USI days.....
and SPA days.....but more on the first....
the joys and the pain and the insanity.....

i know im going nuts but......help me!!!!!!!
i'm not who I used to be.....

I have this focus problem.......I can't get my mind do math(summarizes EVERYTHING)......unlike before....

it may sound so simple but it it really troubles me a lot....
it affects my studies and everything!!!!!!!!
i hope I won't drown in this.....

I need to see those ppl....i know I do....
I need to look into their eyes....and feel the same pain I had....
the pain that inspired me to accept the challenge of being here.....

right now, I feel like I don't feel that pain much now.....
and this is what I must change....
that anger......sorrow.......is what made me stand.
i don't wanna lose it....

it is what I need to stay strong......

wala tlga!!!!!!!naiirita ako!!!!!!
if only things can be controlled to how you want them to be....
kc....
i keep trying.....pero hindi ko tlga kaya...

without the actual pain felt.....kung iisipin ko lng, I won't be able to fight well......

I have to stay with my vow....i have to be true to it....

Till this very day, I still yearn to wake up on that day when....

they'll see everything....they've lost.....
they'll feel how great pain they gave me......

sumday.....it'll happen.......
sana.........

i feel like crying over this.....but..... veve, ada, shiegy.....they're not here....
I don't have anybody to hug tight.....no shoulders to cry unto.....no warm embraces.....no sweet friendly true words to hear.....
nothing!

just as it had been....

New place...New peeps.....New professors...new adjustment!!!!

wow! after a year in Naga na mag-isa....partly independent....ngaun, I have to adjust na naman....
but it's ok....it was my choice nmn e so i have to live with it....

for now, hindi pa nmn ako nagreregret. im tryin to have fun....and i am having fun....kasi classes have not started yet. sana kahit pagsimula ng classes ill still have fun with this.....

natatakot tlga ako!!!
I feel there's so much that changed. I mean, when I transfered nmn in USI, halos everyone saw my potentials in some stuff pero parang hir, ang hirap mag-excel.....
parang ur competing against some of the best people in the country....sobrang hirap kaya!

i feel degraded na parang sa kanilang lahat, ako yung pinakamahina. parang everything I've done and experience are really nothing compared to theirs.

somehow, ok kasi its a real challenge.. i really need to strive hard to get high grades. unlike before na kahit wala kang gawin, ull still get high grades and you don't need to cope up with anything coz u know what's the subject's about.....
but here, it's a different story....i have to prove my worth.....

now i know.....this is one time that i'll say "I'll prove to myself....I'll prove my worth" for now, this will be what's to be said rather than "I'll prove to them..."

at least ngaun i know na those words won't mess me up....it will help me pa.....

sana my friends back there are alright.....

hope i won't fail na sumday, i'll search the globe for the people na naginstill nitong galit na to sakin....
ill throw to their faces na they were wrong and all i have to thank them for was all the pain. un lng.

USI people, miss you guys so much!!!!!!!!!!!!

LyNETte
SHIELA
PAMela
MK
ANNie
MERJ
SalVE
JElyn
ADAmae
betTINA
KAren
SHiggy
JOanne
HAzel
ArDEN
MAE-ANNE
TRAcy
EVITa


basta!!!!!!! lahat!!!!! miss you guys so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sana sulat kau or sumthin....heheheh